Friday, January 28, 2011

babies on the brain...

one of my very dear friends is pregnant. She was keeping it to herself for a long time... I went like a month or so without seeing her and at first glance i looked at her and thought..hmm, am i missing something... we talked for alittle bit and then she casually said i am pregnant again. I said i knew it....she surprisingly asked how... i just told her i could tell...which then offended her! oops! She didn't tell anyone else for the longest time. But now the cat is out of the bag. I am sooo excited! What a huge secret i had to keep!

I am not sure if it is because Rach is pregnant, or that one of my work friends just came back from maternity leave, or that someone asks me when i am going to have children probably 1-2 times a day or that a girl from work is about to go on maternity leave, or the fact that what i do for a living is take care of the new moms and help them with their baby, but...i think about babies all the time. Yes i am ready for a baby but not READY READY. The Sweet Man is ready if it was for sure a boy but he says he just isn't sure what to do with a girl (this is probably what every guy thinks).

The Sweet Man and I are on the go constantly and we love it. We would have to slow down our life for sure. I think about all the risks and complications that could happen. But the part that is crazy to me is I dream about babies, having a baby, breastfeeding, being pregnant with this huge belly all the time. The other night i had a dream that i was pregnant and was still taking my birth control and it caused me to miscarry and i was so upset. When i woke up i couldn't get it out of my mind. I kept thinking should i take my first pregnancy test, just bc i was dreaming these crazy dreams. I told my friends at work and they asked if i took a pregnancy test and i of course said no. It did cross my mind but i decided not to obsess over it. Then my last night at work i went to pedi to go say hi to one of my favorite patients that get hospitalized about everyone month or every other month. We were all asking him our names. He was pretending like he didn't know our names, which we know he does. He then pointed at me and said "you have the baby in your belly." I think i was speechless. Like i said above one of the nurses did just have a baby and he might think that i was her but it still kind of freaked me out.

Just for you to know...i said i was ready but not ready ready. But if i were to be pregnant i would be ECSTATIC!!!! I pray for my little one everyday. I pray he or she will be healthy, i pray that we will be able to provide for our children (this is The Sweet Man's big fear, which i tell him that is probably every man's fear and if we wait until we are 100% financially ready then we will never have kids.) I pray that The Sweet Man will be just as ready as me. I feel this is a big one. I know most women get ready for children before the guy. This might be where we are right now. But then that means the girl/me needs to be patient b/c i think it is huge deal for the guy to be ready and want the baby just as much as you do. With me this is huge. As much as i want to be a stay at home mommy i love my job and i enjoy living on two incomes. I watched my mom "ask" my dad for money all my life and also when she was going to buy big purchases she would have to talk to him about it. I do think that is still important to talk to the sig other before big purchases, but with that being said if i want it really bad and i have the money then i don't think it is bad to get it. And I think The Sweet Man is the same way...good example the Jeep Wrangler he came home with a couple of months ago. haha. I also only work 3 nights a week and my sweet mother is going to take care of my kids during the day. But why it is important having the sweet man 100% on board is b/c he will be these with the baby for 3 nights all on his own. He won't be able to wake me up saying the baby is awake, baby needs a diaper change, baby needs to be fed, baby has a fever and needs meds....that will be all him. Which is a huge deal. I am not saying that every dad isn't like this but , Most let the mom do everything and the dad will be the one that plays with the kid and has fun. Mom's don't always get to have fun. Sorry i just going on and on... but this is what is on my mind obviously!

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Sugar bowl fun....

Its about time...huh?

I didn't realize i still haven't posted about our New Orleans trip for the sugar bowl. We had such a great time. Since we don't live too far from New Orleans we decided to drive and not fly. It is not a bad drive at all. I told the Sweet Man, we should do this trip more often. We go to New Orleans at least once a year b/c my SIL is from there and her family still lives there so its an easy trip to see my brother, sil, and nephew.

Tuesday morning we picked of our friends, Rhys and Jessica, from the airport. Most of our friends all got here the Sunday before. There was a big group of us and so fun to see everyone.

The Sweet Man and I at brunch!
The weather was perfect. Like mid 60's.

Crazy how hog fans all get together at the same place even in New Orleans. The Fayetteville radio station was there also. Everyone just kept showing up, it was like we were all in the pit in Fayetteville tailgating.

a few of the guys
And the girls...

On Bourbon Street
I am not a huge fan of Bourbon St. I don't love soo many people in one place where you can't just walk down a street. At times, yes, i do get distracted so I will get lost from my group. The Sweet Man would keep saying Jenni we aren't behind you. Ooops!
Also when we go with my brother and SIL we don't do the Bourbon st thing. Just tourists. I have seen so much more of New Orleans than Bourbon and if you only see Bourbon you are missing out. But that is were most people were and wanting to go so I just sucked it up and did what majority of the group wanted to do.

I do love these people. When you can't tell if they are real or not. Obviously he was real standing in the middle of the road but others it is difficult to tell.

Every football game there are few people that i ALWAYS hang out with. Many weren't able to make it to New Orleans. But I did get to spend the day with Jordan. I was really worried about not seeing Mary Kate since we were hanging out at different places. But then look who we got to hang out with right before the game.... MK!!!!

Even though we didn't win we had such a good time in New Orleans with friends. We will never be able to get these days back (life without everyone having children), so we are trying to enjoy every bit of it!

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Snow Day

We don't see snow to often in our part of the world. I am soo thankfull that The Sweet Man made it home safe from his duck hunting trip 3-4 hours away. I couldn't enjoy being warm inside the house with the beautiful snow outside while he was on the road heading home. So since he is home safe, and got sweet Lottie this vest, we decided to let her try it on and go play in the snow. She is too cute!

They were having a blast playing fetch in the snow! Although they made the white yard not look as pretty!

Miller always got to it before she did! He is like a Small horse!

Miller waiting for the ball to be thrown. Anyone that knows this big guy knows he never stops. Just sits there for more and more. We tell all guests not to EVER start playing fetch with him.

At this very moment he has a toy in my lap trying to get me to play!

Hope everyone has a wonderful snow day. Stay warm.

Friday, January 7, 2011

The Holidays...

I feel December just flew right by. It is always so hard for me to blog on the computer. I usually just do it on my phone but then i noticed how bad my pictures always look. So i have a lot to share with you.

Christmas 2009 was The Sweet Man and My first Christmas as a married couple. It didn't go so well. AS a Nurse at a Hospital i of course had to work and then there was A LOT of lack of communication between The Sweet Man and me and our families. Since we were going to North Carolina to spend "Christmas" at my brothers after Dec 25 i thought we would spend the actually Day with his family. My family did not LOVE this at all. Then another issue of lack of communication came up and the two of us spent the weekend after Christmas separated. Both of us with our parents him in our hometown me 2 1/2 hours away with my family. Needless to say, I was going to make sure this year was DIFFERENT! It was very organized and soo perfect. The week of Christmas my Brother, Sis-in-law, and nephew came intown. I worked the beginning of the week so i had off while they were intown. Christmas Eve was with his family and Christmas Day with mine. It was soo great. Thankfully I didn't have to work either nights this year. But did have to work New Years Eve....but it was soo worth it. I have no idea why i didn't take but just a few pictures.

Christmas Eve we did get off our "schedule" and had breakfast with my family. This is with My father's side of of the family. We have such a good time with the kids. Christmas is soo wonderful with children around. They are soo excited and happy. All of us only get together maybe 2 times a year, so the moments we are ALL together are perfect.Lenzi, Hollis, Lexi

This time is very special. Every year we take a picture with my 97 year old Grandfather. This is where my nephew Hollis got his name.

Great-grandchildren with Papaw

Grandchildren with PapawJason, Monica, Papaw, Ashley and Me

We spent the rest of Christmas Eve with The Sweet Man's family. We goot soo many great gifts. We then went to one of his family friends house that has a party every Christmas Eve.

Christmas morning we woke up early and headed to my parents house to see what Santa had brought and then open gifts from each other. We did get one present early, or atleast the girls, we all get Christmas Pj's.

Hollis was so funny opening all of the gifts we got him. He opened everything and was excited about each gift. Look at him take a look at this new sweater!

Christmas day all of my Mother's side of the family came to Texarkana. We normally go to Little Rock to spend Christmas at my Grandmothers, but this year they came to my parents new house. We took Hollis to see The Sweet Man's family and hang out with his cousins and all the kids there. He has so much fun and was such a hit.

We are so lucky to both have such large close families. Already looking forward to next year.