Royal spoil....

My father really is a wonderful gift giver. Last valentines day he spoiled Mom, Ash and me with a gift certificate at the Sanctuary medical spa, for the royal spoil. And like mother and daughters, we all put it off until this week, but I couldn't think of a better week to be pampered (having a slight pity party...more on this later). They have so much going on in this royal spoil that I had to split it up between two days. Yesterday evening I did the hour facial. It was my first time to have a facial and it was amazing. Then I put on my robe and went to the room next door for my 90 min massage. It was very hard to get up and walk out, i just wanted to lay there forever. Today I go back for manicure and makeup. Tonight we are celebrating Taylors 30th birthday with friends. I'm going to feel extra pampered and pretty with someone else doing my makeup. I could get used to this. Ready to see what we get this valentines day. Hope he doesn't forget.... Hey dad!

Now this is where it gets a little pit party

But back to this week being the perfect week.....I have been extra emotional! I know what you are thinking maybe your pregnant....but nope....that is kind of the reason for my emotions. It seems like everywhere I go so many people ask me "so when are you and Taylor going to have children". I think I always take a deep breath, that lasts at least 10 sec, then respond with either.... Mind your own business "Well it is in Gods hands now"....always makes the convo end, or "we have been trying since May".....which then everyone responds with "well it will happen when you least expect it", "You are so young, just have fun" or "just remember God has a plan". I know this, I really have been in good spirits and very positive knowing God does have a plan. I want to let go and have him in control but it's hard when you are reminded everyday. Also when everyone around you is pregnant...seriously... Taylor and I have so many friends with young children or expecting...which I love, more kids for my kid to play with...one day. I'm very happy for each of them (please no one take that the wrong way) each of them have been in my shoes and are the most deserving people and are great parents or going to be great parents. Everyone knows I love baby talk and everything about it, I mean it's what I do for a living.....that is what is getting to me the most. I am very happy for each pt that I take care of and help make there labor and delivery experience everything they thought it would be. It bother sme when there are people that can't stop doing drugs long enough to carry a child to term or can't stop taking pain killers. It just gets annoying. This is what make me question things...Like why me... why them, but I know there is a plan for me.

But this month I just knew we were pregnant. Every "early pregnant sign" I had. (this is where being a L&D nurse can be too much for me). I had fun ways of telling Taylor for his bday. Plans to tell our family and close friends on valentines day...too much planning? I know I can't help it. So I was getting impatient just waiting, so I got my blood taken as an outpatient at work.....negative! Now I'm going to have a bill to pay for a big NEGATIVE. If I would have just been patient. But I just knew it would be positive. I'm tired of my every thought being about a baby. When friends ask us about a summer trip, my first thought is ok it's feb, if I were to get pregnant this month,I would be due in nov, yeah we can do a beach trip. Or even how I would have to rearrange my house or if we buy a new house my first thought is what room will be the nursery. When in buy an article of clothing i would if i could wear it if i was pregnancy or next season if i haven't lost the baby weight. Ahhh....this is what I was afraid of, I didn't want this to take over my life....and I'm thinking it has. I wanted it just to happen, we wouldn't be trying but not preventing. Now my thoughts are if something if wrong with me or Taylor! Gosh I know God is getting tired of hearing from me.

Ok so i know I'm normally the happy girl with a smile on my face but not this week. I will say, I have such a sweet friend and sister that are not sure what to do with me in this stage of emotions. I just told them I'm very emotional and don't be worried if I start crying over nothing. My sweet friend Kelsi, laughed and said I'm just glad your normal and get sad every now and then, you always seem like everything is going just fine and always happy. This did make me laugh, little does she know. So then we went shopping. Retail therapy is great. I have now bought all my outfits for every one of my sister's wedding showers, bachelorette weekend, rehearsal dinner, wedding, ....done.

Ok sorry to be so personal but sometimes you have to get it all out. But I do have a very fun weekend to enjoy so I'm just going to have fun. Also the next couple of months will be celebrating my sister and Michael getting marriend and then florida trip for the wedding just 2 months away. So many fun things to look forward to. I hope to tell ya'll this is the last pity party post.... but we will see! I have held this in for 10 months now... well 10 months ago I wasn't as annoyed with it as I am now... But now off to plan a fun weekend for the birthday boy! Life must go on!

Tips for the soon to be Mom...

Yes I know I am not a Mom yet so you are thinking why take tips from you.... Most of my patients the past 3 years have all been new moms. So with that being said a lot of people always have A LOT of question... what to expect, what to bring, what to wear... so now that I see all sides, The labor and delivery and the post-partum part of the hospital i can share with you want you need. I took care of a friend of mine a couple of weeks ago and everything she had she would ask...is this ok that i brought this... So thought i would share it with all of you!

You can wear normal clothes in but you will change into a hospital gown first thing. (No undies or bra on with the gown..just in case you were wondering)You can bring a couple of pair of PJ's. At the least you will stay one night. You can only put the PJs on after you have the baby. Also a robe if you want to walk in the hall and not be waking in your PJ's. Be sure and bring an outfit for you to wear home. For the baby... they can wear whatever you want them to wear even in the nursery. I mean maybe not some fancy dress but a monogrammed onesie that you have would be just fine. And of course whatever outfit you want them to go home in :) Also, most hospitals take pictures of you baby for their website...they can wear whatever in this photo too. SIDE NOTE: one day when i have a baby i am going to go get some of those huge grannie undies to wear too...trust me.. you don't want to wear the ones you wear before the baby and well the hospital ones are ok...but this is just what i would do.

Of course... tooth brush, toothpaste, shampoo and all that good stuff. The hospital will have some but it is not good at all. toothpaste taste awful and the body wash is for all over body including hair.

If you love your own pillow then bring it... it will help you sleep good. If you like certain blankets then you can bring that too.. Just remember the more you bring the more you will be leaving with plus the things people bring you. As for your hubbie or whoever will be staying with you...bring some sleeping pills for them b/c the fold out beds are NOT comfy. I am sure The Man will either be in the bed with me or bring a blow up mattress and possibly be told we can't have it... some people are strict about this kind of stuff.

Do NOT bring food or snacks for you because you can't eat until after the baby is born. Only ice chips...which St. Michael's has the best ice i must say...just like sonic! If your guests need a snack there are vending machines, but that is just not nice to have all these snacks in the room and you can't have any of it... for possibly 24 hours.

If breastfeeding.... a boppy is great to help hold the baby while feeding. Also if you have had a c-section it helps not hurt your belly as much when holding the baby. The little breastfeeding tanks and bras will come in hand too.

If you have a doorhanger...wreath...or whatever go ahead and bring it so as soon as that baby is born you can share it with the world!

Camera of course... some people bring their computer so they can post pictures for everyone ASAP. Also during the delivery expect only 1 or 2 people in the room with you for the delivery. Yes i know that is hard. I personally want The Man, my sister, my mom and The man's mom...BUT... if something where to go wrong they would just be in the way and worried about me and the baby and cause more stress in the room. Your Dr might tell you different but really it is mostly up to the nurse that is taking care of you or the hospital rules.

If you plan on getting an epidural most places everyone has to leave the room. This makes people crazy...but just not it ahead of time. You nurse will be right by your side. The worst part of a delivery, IF HAVE YOU CHOOSE TO HAVE AN EPIDURAL, is the IV start and the little shots in your back to numb you to inter the epidural. If no epidural the cramping and pressure if said to be the worst part, I obviously haven't been in either situation.

Hope this helps all you soon to be Moms out there. It will be a day you never forget. What an amazing job I have to experience a life being born most days i work!

One last thing...If you are coming in to be induced. This is a LONG process... just want you all to know that it doesn't mean a baby will be with you in 2 or 3 hours...it could be 24 or more... but not worries you aren't like pushing for 24 hours but just laboring!!!

Loving life

Sorry I have been missing. I have been very busy with this new job I have. Even though i still only work 3 days a week it worked out that my first 2 weeks on days shift were 3 at the end of the week and 3 at the beginning of the next week! But I LOVE it! it is everything I thought it would be and more. I was a little worried about how I would feel checking to see how far the pt it dilated and all that goodness, but it really wasn't bad and I caught on pretty quick. I am not saying that I am a pro at it yet but catching on for sure. This work week was so fun. I got to take care of a friend. I wasn't there for her baby to be born but just be involved in the care of a friend about to have her baby is great. Then on my last day I had another girl that I know come in. I didn't take care of her but enjoyed visiting with her and her family. Two beautiful babies. I have the best job EVER!

Back to my very first day at work.....it was a little crazy/busy and I really didn't know what to expect. BUT how cool...the first baby born that day named their baby mine and The Mans favorite boy name. And then my very first delivery they named the baby Jennifer! Shut up. So crazy huh? I know I will probably be writing a lot of posts about my days at work hope y'all don't mind!

Day shift is great. On my 9th day of waking up before 7 am I thought I was going to over. But I am making it through. I feel so much better. No longer feel like I have been hit by a truck. :) hope you all have a good rest of the week! I am off for a week but already ready to get back!

I Can finally tell...

After my unanswered prayers post i got a lot of fb messages and texts thinking i was pregnant... crack me up. I would have shared it in that post if i was preggers for sure. Getting pregnant is not something i have struggled with over the past year either... anyway... to the good news and PRAYER GOD ANSWERED.

I got a new job... same hospital, same management (kind of) but going to

LABOR & DELIVERY and DAY SHIFT

This is the BEST job ever in my eyes. It is what I went to Nursing School for. Some of you might be thinking to yourself "this is what i thought you did in the first place." Most people think that but really i take care of the mom right after the delivery. So basically I had the "dirty" part of the job. But i loved it, being a part of the best moment in a new mom and dads life is great. Now i am going to be a party of bring a new life into the world. So amazing.

I am very scared, not knowing anything about helping the doctor with the delivery stresses me out. In school we just got to watch, we didn't get to do anything during the delivery. It is a lot of change for me but i kind of like change. I don't know any of the nurses really. I obviously know day shift on my side of the floor and i know night shift on L&D but not day shift. So it will be like my first day as a new grad all over again. But so worth it to do your dream job! It is the same Doctors I have been working with, but as a night shift nurse we didn't see them as much, just called them during the nights.

I tried not to go on and on in posts, but working nights was really hard on me. It was really hard when the man and i first got married. If you haven't worked a 12 hour night shift, it somewhat feels like you have the flu 24/7 or you got hit by a truck. When you are at work it isn't bad but when you have to live a normal day shift life after not sleeping is awful. After a year of night shift i applied for a school nurse job b/c it wasn't looking like i was going to day anytime soon. I think they thought i was to young to be a middle school nurse. Then this past year when my sister moved here and started working at the other hospital in town i decided since she loved it i would apply for a day shift position there. This didn't work out...which were my unanswered prayers...so i thought.... little did i know i just needed to have faith. After 3 years i am finally doing my dream job. Soo excited and so scared at the same time. And i start in a week... ahhh! I will let you all know how it goes. It is a pay cute but I have always said I would pay someone to let live a normal life. And i never really understood how i could have children and work night shift! Oh yeah...so i just got offered the job today. I heard that i was possible going to get it and i was taking off the schedule on my floor so i knew something was going on...but didn't want to jinx myself! Say a little prayers for me next Wednesday...my first day on L&D.